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i like it when it's just you & me

It's ironic, how to make the world just for us and how to stop the time everytime we met. My body feels like a perfect puzzle if it's just you & me, your hand can touch me everywhere you want, your eyes can stares at me for every inch of me, your mouth can talk everything u feel, even if the world hates you. Bet i truly could hanging to the cliff and swim to the river just to find your lost buttons shirt.

I love you, that could ruining my life with a pure blood that came from my heart, but one thing i couldn't stand that could blurry my vision to dark, when there is someone else with us. you turned me to a toxic lovers that obsessed with their partner, the way you act to me it's not the same anymore, you made me wonder and slowly eat my mind alone in a crowded place. What's makes you like this? am i not that important? am i not that pretty? am i too dramatic? am i an ashamed thing? am i? am i? am i? i'm down deep with your warm smile to them, i didn't like that. When your homies is around, you turned like a stranger man for me like you didn't even check up on me bruh, i hate it, again and again you let me drown with my own mind.

Quick, tell me why it feels like a chaotic puzzles, even i can't bond it together. All this feelings made me hates everyone around us, it's suck because you will not understand, your just a man with a high ego to fullfil, you will blamed me for the smallest bleed untill it's getting bigger from your eyes to feed. i already warned you, give you the sign but your just a man, you can't learn your first lesson. I curse your name with a cold blood that could grow up my stoicism mind, i let my heart die for it cause you rarely help me drown from that ship.

Am i being delusional right now? because i know my dark feelings would be healing if you finally look into my mind and soul, but it's 11 p.m now, you didn't reply my messages cause maybe you will remember me if yourself finally alone in a bed, for that moment i willing my tears to be fair, my hand to be sweat and fire up just to pour everything i feel tonight, so i can let it go and didn't hate at you anymore. 


Btw, i need to take my medicine so i can write without my headache 
problem, but my stomach getting hurt cuz i didn't eat meal first lol

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