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The best skill i did this year is making chocolate cookies, once a month i made cookies with my best friend who already expert to this thing. She teach me the recipe and how to do it step by step it's quite easy, all you need such as, sugar, brown sugar, butter, chocolate, flour and egg then, you just need to mix it all until the dough is not too sticky, after that, you just put it in an oven with a temperature of 200 degrees for about 15 minutes and you have cookies at home with a soft texture and melted chocolate in your mouth! . I personally don't like my cookies if it's too sweet so i adjust the sugar according to my taste, so i can eat it without a throat problem. Today i decided to make chocolate cookies by my self also to spend my leftovers ingredients, at first step i quite confident to do it but after i check to the dough it's too oily and i realize i put too much butter in it but i'm just add more flour carefully and i think the dough is fine now. After i ...

 I already tell ya that 2 month later i would be in college and being an english literature student, i leave my hometown take everything i need and live in my boarding house. I never experience this kind of situation because i used to school near of my hometown i didn't go anywhere since i was a kid. So it's kinda hard for me to think that what would happen to me when i finally leave this house, i'm scared of everything. It haunts me lately because i start over thinking of situation i will face, i'm scared of being alone and don't have a friend. It's my nightmare, bacause i'm an introvert person and have a social anxiety it's hard for me to having a relationship with a stranger. Actually for now i have this new student group chat and i know them for now but, i'm just scared what if when we already in collage and i didn't  fill their expectation? maybe they would leave me, it's ok if it's happen i'm just gonna breath and continue my li...

Me & my self can go out of control sometimes, as a 18 years old with a parents issue i feel like my emotions is not perfect yet. There is something wall between me and my feelings if something happened that i cannot accept and the upset feelings crawl from my upside to my upper body, blind me of what i already have. Well, the reason maybe i'm still young so that my machine processor is not perfect yet, or maybe every person has their own traumatic moment to reach that feelings. I believe habits influence person how they would react to a problem, for example if someone with a fulltime job and get tired of it, missing nap or want to rest but can not because of their job, if this person doing a moment like pray to god or being a grateful maybe they just do it and so thankful for themself so they can reach this level. My habits is not like a billionaire routine, i'm a teenager, i do cry on my night skincare routine, i do mad for someone but still can't along with it, i do f...

      Everyone adore cats but not for my mom she's not a cat person since i was a kid, i don't know why but every time i adopt a cat from the street and take it home my mom is always gonna yelled at me and told me to put it back where i found it, i know it's kinda sad i used to cry about it since i was a little kid you know. But how far i grew up i'm being a teenager a little bit dissident and ask my mom why can i get a cat? my mom tell me the reasons are because cat poops everywhere, we can get a litter box though mom seriously. she also said that cat is ruin things at home, we can train it though. She's not give me an excuse to have a cat, but i still follow her rules and just pet my friend's cat or street cat what a nice Kaeya.      But one day this cute tuxedo cat come to my home, she plays on my terrace and it's all day. Once again i ask my mom if i can bring it to home? " NO " oh of course mom, but she tell me to just play with the cat outsid...

       I don't know what to say but first of all let me introduce my self. my name is Saskiya people call me Kiya actually, but on the internet i'd like to add Kaeya for my name to people know here, so please call me Kaeya i will appreciate that. I'm 18 years old now and living in a country with so many island in the world called Indonesia. My hobby is not so many to tell ya, i like music, movies or series and i like to being in touch with nature like literally u guys, if im leaving in a place with so many nature place like Switzerland i would be so much grateful really. If someone ask me to going to that place i will go crazy and crying in happiness.      2 months from now i will go to collage and of course im an english literature student. I have to train a little now because english is not my native language. Speaking about english language, lately i make this poet about my feelings its like a diary sometimes but wrap in a poet. i'll show you one of...